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Getting my Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis

Getting my Borderline Personality Disorder Diagnosis

Trigger warning: mention of suicide. 2015/16 was a rough time for me. Recurrent suicide attempts, dissociation, losing time, self harm, frequent binge drinking and bulimia. It was easily one of the worst points of my life in terms of my mental health, and it was […]

Where Did I Go?

Where Did I Go?

About a year and a half ago I was preparing to come back to my blog after a difficult few months of trying to balance my health and university studies. It took so much of my energy to do the bare minimum back then that […]

You Don’t Have To Always Be Positive 

You Don’t Have To Always Be Positive 

Sometimes bad things happen. Sometimes your life does not go to plan, sometimes things don’t work out the way you want them to even if you tried hard to make sure they would. Sometimes really terrible, tragic things happen and you have to rebuild, and […]

If You’re Scared, Do It Anyway

If You’re Scared, Do It Anyway

The prospect of being on the slope without a coach was honestly terrifying me. I was going to do it for the first time yesterday, but chickened out because I still have so much fear of falling off the lift without a coach there, of […]

How Snowboarding Has Changed My Life

How Snowboarding Has Changed My Life

I may not have been snowboarding for long and I may not be very good, but riding has already changed my life in ways I didn’t think was possible. Of course, when I took it up my intention was that it would help me to […]

While You Weren’t Looking

It’s December 2015. I’m lying in bed, alone, clutching my pink koala teddy. I’m wrapped up tight under my duvet. My body is freezing because I haven’t eaten, and truthfully I’ve lost count of the days since I last did. My calendar still tells me it’s October, […]

Snowboard Update: Turning & Pomas

My last post concluded with me announcing that I’d booked my next lesson. Now, in hindsight, I definitely booked it too soon as my body was so sore and aching from the day before but, by some miracle, I passed the next two stages. This lesson was far […]

First Lesson at Snozone Castleford – I Did It! Facing Fears, Learning New Things

Awful selfie, but thank you to @Snozone_UK Castleford for a fantastic lesson! Next stop: Olympics. (Ok, maybe not.) pic.twitter.com/EfxchMYCcn — Miss ASTRID 🐝 (@itsmissastrid) May 24, 2016 Words cannot even begin to describe how happy I am right now to have successfully completed my first […]

Staying Strong When The World is Against You

Staying Strong When The World is Against You

This is not a post I wanted to be writing, but last week on Thursday something happened to me that has brought everything back. Something that has made me, I suppose, unpredictable and overly emotional for the last few days. Something that I need to […]

Small Steps Really Can Take You Long Distances

Small Steps Really Can Take You Long Distances

On Tuesday I walked 20km with no fainting, kept myself adequately fuelled, hydrated and fully enjoyed my time in the sun. This is a pretty big achievement when you consider that not so long ago, back when my health was so terrible that simply walking could be at times […]